Lady Gaga shared that was pregnant after you’ve been raped at age 19. After an appearance on the documentary show of Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry, The Me You Can’t See, the singer spoke of the long journey she has had to reach a good point in her mental health.
During the interview, the actress also delved into the time she was raped by a music producer, whom she said she will not name because she does not want to have to see that person again.
“I was 19 years old and I was working on music and a producer told me ‘take off your clothes’ and I said ‘no’ And I left and they told me they were going to burn all my music. And they kept asking me and I froze and I … I don’t even remember. And I won’t say his name. I understand this #MeToo movement and I understand that a lot of people feel really comfortable with it. I never want to face this person again”She said through tears.
Singer He explained that it was years after that he revived the trauma in such a way that she ended up feeling like the time she had been abused, so it was a psychiatrist who attended her.
“Years later I went to the hospital, they brought in a psychiatrist and I told them: ‘Bring me a real doctor.’ I said, ‘Why is there a psychologist here? I can’t feel my body. ‘ I felt total pain, then I was numb“, He said.
It was after being ill for a long time that she came to the realization that the symptoms she had were the same as she suffered after she was raped and realized that I was pregnant.
“I was sick for weeks and weeks afterward and I realized that it was the same pain what I felt when the person who raped me got me pregnant on the corner [afuera] from my parents’ house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because she had been abused. I was locked up in a studio for months, ”she revealed.
The singer added that this is not the first time that her body has behaved in this way, but that for a long time this was a constant in her life: his body froze, but there was no physical reason to explain it.
“I had a Psychotic attack total and for a couple of years I was not the same girl. The way I feel when I am in pain is how I felt after I was raped. I had so many MRIs and scans and they never find anything, but your body remembers. I couldn’t feel anything. I dissociated myself. It’s like your brain disconnects and you didn’t know why no one else is panicking, but you are in a state of ultra paranoia. It is really very real to feel that there is a black cloud that follows you wherever you go, telling you that you are worth nothing and that you should die, ”shared the Oscar winner.
The interpreter also explained that for her, the self harm it was a way of expressing her pain instead of just having it inside, but this made her feel much worse. However, he recently stopped doing this, as he has focused much more on his mental health, although it has been a battle.
“The reason why I recently mutilated myself, it is because the healing process in my mental health has been a slow improvement. And even if I have six great months, all I need is something to be triggered once to make me feel bad, “he said.
Lady Gaga explained that over time, she has learned to “pull herself out” of that mental state based on techniques you have learned over the past two and a half years.